When You're Raised as a Dreamer

4 years later, and a little bit of life under the belt, and I'm back to blogging, or maybe just dreaming out loud.

The irony is that my last post was about not feeling like I fit in to the 'work world' or whatever my perception was of that as I was graduating from college. Now that I've avoided the work force for an extra two years and then jumped into youth ministry as a mid-20 year old intern, I can safely say that I did not even attempt to fit into to whatever my idea of the real world is. What I'm realizing as my job turned internship is coming to an end, is that the idea of work and wage, purpose and passion fit together differently for the millenial than the world wants to make us believe. Pursue your passion, they infuse us with as we're paying for an education that just ends up as a line on a resume. Don't settle for anything less than your worth, they pump us up with when we're in Elementary through High School. Dream big, they ingrain in us so that nothing we find is ever really satisfying enough.

I know what you're thinking, I'm the typical millenial blaming the world, my parents, teachers, influencers for the way that I am now. I'm not blaming anyone, I am who I am and what I am because of the choices that I've made and the perspective that I have in life. But that perspective came from an idealistic undertaking of the world that was formed around me. These ideals about life listed above aren't necessarily wrong or bad, they are just unrealistic.

But I've become accustomed to looking at the world unrealistically, and I think instead of seeing it as a weakness I'm going to use it as my strength. I'm part of a generation that refuses to fit in with the status quo, and that's good! It's innovative, creative and thought provoking. I refuse to stop dreaming big. I refuse to not pursue my passions in exchange for rent and food on the table. I will not sit in an office and dream of a life that I'd rather have.

I will live my life for others. I will chase after my dreams. I will use my gifts and passions.  I will not take no for an answer. I will not let anything dim my hopes and my goals. I will be all that I was created to be.

This blog started when I was trying to figure out how I fit into the world. What I'm realizing is that I will never fit into the world, and that's what drives me. Not just to make the world a better place, but to move and shake the world so that it begins to look more beautiful than broken. That's my mission, my life purpose if you will: Push back the ugly to make room for the good: the joy, the beauty, the love, and everything in between.