The Road Less Traveled

I'm a senior in college, twenty-one years old, and single. I'm not complaining. I love being single, but at a private Christian university where one of the main goals is to find your spouse before you leave, it's kind-of an anomaly. Or at least something people find strange. I don't. I'm actually glad that I'm able to be independent and not have to share life with someone yet. As cliche as this is, I think it's a blessing that I'm single. 

But. I'm writing this blog because I was recently asked "how I deal with being single." I don't necessarily think it's something that I have to "deal with." But I know that I look at life vastly different than a lot of people in and recently out of college. Yes, I deeply desire to find a guy that is willing to be my best friend and commit to loving me for the rest of our lives, but that doesn't mean that I'm ready for him now. I have a lot of growing up to do, a lot of life to live, and I don't think he's quite ready for who I am right now. I have a lot of stuff to figure out first. And I know marriage isn't something that we hold off until we're ready, because honestly? No one will ever be ready for marriage. I know that, but I know myself and my loyalty, and I think even if I had met the guy I was going to eventually marry in college, I'd want to figure life out on my own for a while. I'd want to be independent so I'm not fully relying on him to provide anything for me.

Because honestly? I'd rather fully rely on Him to provide for me. That's why I'm OK being single. That's why I'm glad I'm single. I love that I get to rest in Him and trust that He has a perfect plan for my life. It may not be where I want it to be yet, but He has a plan. He has something perfect waiting for me, and the coolest part about His sovereignty is that His perfect plan is now. Not only has it already happened in His vision of the world, but where I am now in my life is PERFECT for me. His plan and His timing is and always will be perfect. That's why I am so against the idea of "ring by spring." If God wanted that for me, He would have provided it, but I think I've been provided with so much more. 

I have the chance to make life-choices for myself after college. I've decided to go to seminary and pursue His plan for me in the place that He wants me to be. Even when people look at me strange because I only applied to one seminary, I have no doubt that God will provide for me because I fully believe that He wants me there. And if He doesn't? He has a better plan. And that will be SO awesome to figure out. 

It's a blessing to be single. I REFUSE to be upset or angry about it. Yes, I'm surrounded by couples. Yes, I desire a long-lasting relationship. But there will be time for that. My time now is devoted to God's word and work in my life. And that is AWESOME. I am so thankful for that chance to commit myself more to Him and I pray that I will not forget His perfect, awesome, unconditional love.